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Everybody is having problems. What is happening.
Now that mine is over, everyone else problems is arising, some has always been there.
Projects are also piling up. Getting a diploma may be as easy as it seems.

As our studies are important, socialising seem to be 20cu subject. Even though I'm dealing quite well with it, but looking at my friends, I feel sad.
One girlfriend is over-sensitive, another don't even care. Come on. Relationship is not a toy. It's human feelings you're dealing with.

Everyone should just quit their CCA, so many politics. Whichever CCA you're in, there's bound to be some kind of unhappiness.

Polytechnic, a place you wanna be?

Celebrated Berlyn's birthday and met up with Agnes, Felicia and Edelyn. I so miss them and catched up a bit on each other's life. haha. Agnes and I apparently know the hot gossips. If only we were from the same school. This Edelyn and Felicia just sit there and listen to us because they don't know what and who we're talking about. haha. This Felicia don't even know her own studies club president eh. She's the best la. ahaha.

I LOVE THEM. I MISS THOSE SECONDARY ONE AND TWO DAYS WITH THEM,
IT'LL ALWAYS REMAIN IN MY HEART!

what are all these arguments for? I HATE IT! but I cannot stop it. I don't wanna end this friendship like that but we never seem to be able to come to an agreement.
Nobody will ever know how much this friendship mean to me because it's like as if I'm the one being unreasonable. Can somebody stand at my point of view and see. I don't know how to tell ppl because it may seem like as if I'm just being over-sensitive.
Akbar told me to just talk as per normal but it's difficult. He offered to help but I rejected it. Am I the one being difficult or is it how everyone would have reacted. I'm also angry that a friend, a friendship that mean so much to me is taken away just because of one stupid GAY.

I don't understand why superficial people gain so much and when I'm being so true to you, you don't feel it. Is it that diffcult to listen to what I have to say and so easy to hear those stupid grumbles of his/her. Because you're not going through what I'm going through you don't understand how I feel being wronged. You don't understand my feelings towards him.

Why are you more bothered about your football when I'm trying to tell you things that mean so much to me. You'd rather see some stupid other blogs but the one I wanna show you. You don't even bother to smile at me when you know I'm feeling down. You don't know how to smile. Then is it so easy for me to smile and fake that I'm so happy, with no sorrows, troubles or problems. It just because you don't listen and to you, nothing else is more important then your problem. Listening seem to be only a one-way thing. Would you even care if I cry right now? Would you ask me why? Would you even listen? Do you see me more than a classmate? A friend? or just some random person? I'm not for anything more than just your pair of ear. Are you just so busy when I can spare so much for you! It's holidays now for God's sake.

I don't know why, but my life seem to be so dull. Is it because I'm asking too .much? All I need is just that someone to be there for me.

I've finally seen the doctor. He gave me moisturiser and some anti-inflamatory cream. It's getting better. At least it doesn't hurt when I touch the water. But when I stretch it, it's still a bit painful.

Things are getting complicated. I don't really know what everyone is thinking about anymore. The more things I find out, the scarier it gets. But my curiosity is never comes to an end. Even as things get complicated, I wanna know more thinking that I can get a clearer picture. But I don't. The more I know, the more I get confused. I want my simple life!

It's painful to see how you get sad over someone else. The times where we discover so much about each other. I miss it.

Went to school today for Cateting Tech (CAT) and Nutrition Across Lifespan (NLS) project meeting. So damn tired.

Even as it's holidays, I've gotta go to school as often as I do on normal days. There are even more projects to be done. It's driving me mad.

Thank goodness, at least I need not see some ppl from class at all. I know tt things will never be the same.

Something happened to my hand and it cracked. Super painful. Whether or not I keep it dry or wet, it's painful. I need to see the doctor soon but I've got no time and the stupid polyclinic closes so early and the queue is always so long. I'll most probably be lazy too to queue. BUT, the pain is killing me. It's aches from day to night and night to day.

I miss the times where we talked so happily, you telling me everything abt yourself. Things are just different now.

I wish tt my class would forever be T02.

MY VICTORIA SECRET'S LIP GLOSS DROPPED INTO THE DRAIN.
I can never retrieve it back. It dropped out from my wallet and got stuck on the drain.
Perlin happily kicked it down. AHH!
Heart pain.
somebody buy me pretty lip gloss.
I'll love you to the core.

Mid sem is finally over. Now two weeks of holidays. for the very least one week because for the other week I probably have gotta to do projectS.

Because of exams, I canot really remember what I've done for the past one week. haha.

I hate it when you grumble about so many things and just wouldn't tell the details. It's really torturing.

FUCK IT LA.
It's your job and we're helping you and you happily went home.
I know it's driving everyone mad and I just don't see why you don't seem to bother the lesat bit. I know you did quite a but alr. but the data ain't exactly right. How is it that we can complete it by today? I know not.
Gilbert brought everything home to do himself and I really wanted to help. I don't know how to.
FPQA
Eprina, Iriyani, Raihan is doing everything. I feel so bad but I don't have time for it. I feel really bad not helping but they still seem so nice. How?
Everything is just freaking screwed. Projects are really the worst thing on earth. I mean like, if you just work individually, things would be much easier with less complications.
I hate projects.
It's not doing me any good. Build up relationships with friends? No, I only see their true colours and it's so ugly.

Went singing with Sam Wan Yan and Xuan. I really love the times we sang. We just go crazy and sing so happily. It makes me forget abt all my sorrows.

Dreamt.

I don't understand. I if you want everything to be okay then you should be doing smth not expecting others to do smth. It's not the time to judge who is at fault but who who wants to make the effort. I'm not because I don't see a need in trying to salvage this friendship but if you want to, you should be the one doing smth and not expecting a thrid party to do so.

whatever it is, nothing can be done to make our friendship any better.

Love is friendship on fire. I want to know.

I'm a confused child. Tell me what to do?

Suppose to be in school at 1130 and I happily woke up at 1130 when Seng Chin called. I was damn angry when he called me because I was super tired. haha. When I found out that I was already late, I called Mummy straight away and she came back home to fetch me to Newater plant. haha. Arrived at the same time as the bus. haha. The Newater plant is like boring.

THANK YOU MUMMY.
THANK YOU LIM SENG CHIN, GILBERT TONG WAI HOO & RINA QUEK YU CHIN FOR WASTING YOUR PHONE BILL.

After that I went to Sun Tec with Clique 12-5+1. haha. We ate Carl's Jr and I almost died eating fries. For the first time in my life I dread eating fries. We ordered extra cheese fries, Mel ordered one set meal, I ordered Fish and Chips. All the fries we had almost killed me. I could feel the walls of my stomach expanding. Pregnant.
We walked around and somehow we lost De Yuan, La Me and Ah Ming and it was left with Mel, Fer and I. We went to Topshop and there's this super pretty skirt which cost $73 and I'm waiting for Sale to get it. GAP, the most happening place, we saw the Gap Kids hoody, damn nice! Fer, Mel and I were trying on to almost everyone of it. And we could fit in the largest size. haha.
In the end, Mel and I bought one each. 50% discount for the second piece.
We walked down city-link and just walked in anywhere we wanted to.
Prints: I was telling Fer about my wedding and how I would decorate my children's room and she just ask to me keep fantacising.
NUM: Some Green Brazil Havaianas that she wanted so much, so Mel and I came out with the money to buy it first. She went crazy la. It was damn funny. She and Her face. haha.

I LOVE SHOPPING!!!



ESP WITH ONG LI RONG MELISSA & FERLICIA MA XIAO RU

School! Just as usual, boring.
Catering Technology lab, I know nothing about fruits and vegetables. I can recognise none of the leafy vegetables. Apel, some of them went to run the reservior but I didn't because I will be running later during physical training. I ran before the team because I had to leave early to meet the GC ppl for Tsali's birthday.

AKBAR is the best person on earth. (I love you la!) He came to TP from Woodlands just to fetch me. He fetched me from school down to town, forum. When I was walking to the bike I accidentally touched the exhaust pipe. Pain like anything and this Nanda keep telling me that it's gonna be there forever. It's still painful when I touch it now.

Went to Hard Rock Cafe to have dinner. It was damn fun. They actually made Tsali stand on a chair in the middle of the stage to ask the whole of Hard Rock to sing her a birthday song. And she sang open arms with the live band. haha.

Met Zi Xuan and Nanda at Telok Kurau park and talk. The fort was occupied and we were sitting on the dome. I was so tired that I didn't talk much. Walked and reached home at 2 a.m. Died on my bed.
Nanda don't worry, you'll be fine. I'll always be there for you when you need one. I'm just a call away.
Zi Xuan, wait till next sem, the five of us can be together and you can always find me when you've got nobody.

Yay Nanxin, your blog is finally revived and yours truly has changed your skin already. I don't know if you'll like it but I chose this for you. Haha ok take much care and I'm off. I made it password free so you cannot be a cool dude. I can help you help you to put the password thing if you want. See you soon mermaid! Post some pictures! (click on the light blue icon beside the ABC/tick if you don't know how to do it) Don't get locked out of your room anymore!You can delete this post if you want:)

LOVEYOU,FELICIA.

It probably has been more than a year since I last blogged, now, I've nothing to do so just blog la.
NOW, school is like mad and it's just filled with projects porjects and projects.

My class is just screwed up.There has been just so many things bothering me.
Nobody seems to be there at all. I know can always turn to Zi Xuan but I understand that she has her everything to care about and her life isn't going very smoothly as well.


My best friend in class is just so different. Relationship with her probably just changed in a week. I understand that you have your own commitments but can you understand that we've been through storms and earthquakes together and I've always been there for you. Never have I thought of leaving you. But because of just one incident, you left. Bits and pieces of my heart on the floor, nobody is there to pick it up. I try so hard to be okay and be the same in front of you, but I TRY, not that I want to. I wonder if you know how much you mean and have hurt me. Everything is DIFFERENT!

Everybody has their own problems and I don't expect anyone to be there for me 24/7because we are just friends. But ONE whole week, a week of hell, where were you?
I cannot stop but to question myself. I know you always tell me you're sorry that you cannot be there because you're somehow always out. But I would really appreciate it if you just listen, nothing more. You don't need to ask me not to cry and to cheer up. Just be that listening ear, it's more than enough.

Melissa Ong Li Rong

I so totally love her. She's been waiting for me after school just to talk to me. During lectures she's been there for me. Her words of encouragement soemtimes just lift me up to from my lowest valley.

I know that I'm so totally forcing myself to be where I don't want to be. Or rather, where people are just not of the same frequency. But where can I be? Alone? Back where I am hurt so deeply? NO WAY! Like what everyone else says, I'm so noisy, hyper-active, how is it that I can just stay in the library for 4 hours straight just to sleep. I know I just say my feelings but you can always ignore it.

I HATE MY LIFE NOW, NAN XIN IS NO LONGER NAN XIN. where am I? Do I really have to hide myself?

Have not blogged for a long long time. I feel so bad. It's like as if I've been so close to someone and then suddenly, I just neglect that person. haha.

Anws, my life has been quite messed up. Relationship with certain people hasn't been too good. Probably going through a rough patch.

Whatever, I'll just study hard. haha. but I haven't been studying. haha. Aiya, I'm so contradicting. I want to blog and yet I don't know what to blog about. School has just been very stressful. To think I was grumbling about working but I think studying in a polytechnic is worst la. I prefer working to poly, and rather secondary school than working. haha. Stupid me.

Life hasn't been too bad in school. But I'm kinda stress with the test and hw. Anw, I don't like trng. I just can't stand it. but shall not talk abt it. haha. Come take my test. haha.


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Though they lost to BMSS, like again, but no matter what, WE IMPROVED. It's like second this time round. So happy for them.One thing is tt all the Northland good players all left alr. so all tt they're depending on the twins. How to win, and BMSS has home ground advantage. But I must say tt they're good. haha.
A very exciting match, I know Charlotte fought so hard to score a goal for us but tt's okay. At least you assisted tt pretty goal tt Felix scored.
Sam really did sweat tens of thousands of sweat la. haha. I think tt's funny.
Happy for them still.
Ate at some Tiong Barhu plaza for dinner. the Ban Mian is nice.
Nanda and I is gonna get the same for almost every new thing. haha.

Had orientation with my Classmates, for the next three yrs.
They all seem not too bad. Not sure if it's tt I'm racist or what but there's this Indian and Malay in my class tt I not like. They're turn off la.
One is the action kind kind, then another one is the overly high one.
I miss KC.
Anw, I like my OL, Lecia. She very nice and like my friend. haha.
I'm super sad, there's like no cute guys in my class.
One is super GAY pok, then one is like I don't know what the hell she thinking abt. Then, one, he's like some male-chauvanist(spell?). The last one is not too bad. the best out of all, but he's still not my type.

Orientation is filled with cheers and my voice like spoil ready can. Can't shout like I used to. The amazing race was fun and tiring. I was soapy and sweaty and I poured water on myself so tt I can at least wash the soap away.

My class is like abit da hip but at least not nerds. haha. I just don't like the guys la. haha.

Had orientation with my Classmates, for the next three yrs.
They all seem not too bad. Not sure if it's tt I'm racist or what but there's this Indian and Malay in my class tt I not like. They're turn off la.
One is the action kind kind, then another one is the overly high one.
I miss KC.
Anw, I like my OL, Lecia. She very nice and like my friend. haha.
I'm super sad, there's like no cute guys in my class.
One is super GAY pok, then one is like I don't know what the hell she thinking abt. Then, one, he's like some male-chauvanist(spell?). The last one is not too bad. the best out of all, but he's still not my type.

Orientation is filled with cheers and my voice like spoil ready can. Can't shout like I used to. The amazing race was fun and tiring. I was soapy and sweaty and I poured water on myself so tt I can at least wash the soap away.

My class is like abit da hip but at least not nerds. haha. I just don't like the guys la. haha.

ohh,
Poly's orientation is starting tmr. Like excited yet afraid. Quit my job like kinda 3 weeks ago. So happy.
Anw, I haven't been blogging, and I think no one reads my blog anymore. but okay la.
Now, I just wish to conc. on my studies. like there wasn't many things tt I could do so it's like back to KC almost everyday. Watched the juniors match and all. I like there, my old school. I miss life eating sushi during recess.
I love hipping there. It has been very emo. I miss my friends including my juniors.
and I went for the TP trng. It's like so wrong can. Totally so not use to it. and the weird SGS is so interested abt Jill and all. Like wth. She's like super high and like she thinks tt everyone is like her friend and I bet she's one if the ones who backstabs. I don't know why but I just think so. Like ppl who likes to act friendly, they do it just because they treat you as a back up. In case they do not have friends, at least someone there but if she alr. has friends and others all don't like you. She'll go all out to bitch abt you. I may be worong to look at her at this way even w/o knowing her like long enough. But you know, girls all has this very strong six sense. Usually when they sense smth it's very accurate.
I so treasure my friends in KC and juniors.
I think I'm still so attached to them, like totally.
Okay, lets see what happens tmr.
I hope I see known ppl or friendly and sincere person. I really would rather guys than girls. They're gullible and girls usually think too much tt'll cause many miscommunication or misunderstanding. In a way, easier to bully them.
Okay, shall see what friends I make tmr, haha. Better have cute ppl arnd to entertain me. I hope there're many ppl who can make me laugh and even more entertaiment than me.

There haven't been much of excitement in my life.
Okay, put it in other words, it means tt I'm all about working these few weeks and I had always wanted to quit but I don't know if I should.
Nan Xin, hang in there for a few more weeks, till school starts, you shall quit and tell the ppl there tt you wanna concentrate you work in school.
I only worked for two days last week and and this because I really wanted to reast. Working 5 days per week has been a chore and I just wanna rest awhile. I may seem to be a long break but I don't think tt I'm enjoying myself the way I should.
I've always wanted to work, but working is not as fun as I've always thought it would be.
Forget it, I'm like gonna quit in another three weeks to a months time. YES!!!

I've been very addicted to the show, Hana Kimi, and Fahrenheit, esp Wu Zun in there. Ahh, he's so pretty. Another one is Tang yu ze who acts in the hana kimi. Episode 15, hurry come out. I'm waiting right here for you.

Anw, I'm like looking forward to the re-opening of Poly, a new chapter of my life, but I'm still afraid tt I'll not be able to get use to the Poly life eps girls from mix school, they will be so different from the friends tt I use to have in KC. Like a total different experience and I might not get use to it. Even during TP rawks, it was also only the KC girls who were making noise and being so expressive, rather than the others in the same group. Anw, just try to learn to communicate with the ppl tt I think I cannot talk to. Anw, not like as if my EQ is 0.

I just miss my life in KC where the teachers will just so take care of you. ohh no, what if I have no friends in Poly. I don't think so right. haha, no matter what I'll have my seniors there and many KC girls will be there. I still have my beloved Nisa. Why am I worrying abt this. Just be myself.

I'm so sorry for not blogging for the past few months.
the computer hasnt been smth tt attracts me very much, more over, my sister has been using the computer to do her project.
Anw, I'm currently working in Starbucks now, but the thing is tt I don't like some of the turn off ppl there and I don't even understand why I thought that it would be a nice place to work at.
I've always thought tt it'll be a nice place to work at because the pplp there are very nice and things like tt. but they are all cheat. They are nice to you only on the outside. They are trained to be friendly. I know tt in the service line you gotta be polite and friendly, just tt, must it be so pretentious.
If you're like tt, then just be yourself, must you act it out. I don't understand.

Havent been meeting my friends. except for Xuan because we're both not studying. Met them today though to send Jill off to Japan, just tt the atupid ppl who has boyfriend did not come because it's valentine's day. haha.

I bought Chocolates for them, the Charlotte gave some made flower and Nanda gave a flower just as well.

There was this customer, he was so nice. he actually bought me a rose. Long story, he bought for some other partner and I, just the two of us. What a nice appreciative person. I don't understand why some of friends are not as appreciative as him.

Anw, went to Renée's house to submit my choices for poly. I'm confirm in tp, because 70% of my choices are from tp. Thank you Renée for teaching and helping me to do the thing. She lent me her house till like 12 am. and her Dad sent me home. It was super funny in the car la. Shall not talk abt it anw. It's just between the two of us. haha.

I WANNA QUIT MY JOB. wait till I get another job. haha. I wanna be a relief teacher. So fun and good pay. not fun but at least I have freidns in school. haha.

I have not blogged close to a month. Not too sure why. I just feel like blogging today.
gonna work later.
Most of my friends should know tt I'm working at Starbucks PS.
Everyone, please do not think tt I can just give you all free drinks like tt. Sorry.
I would wish to. But I can't.
Anw I'm so very glad to see some of you to come and visit me.

Now, my life is all abt Starbucks and I'm not tt happy. I think soon, I'll have lotsa grey hair because it's so freaking stress.

I would like to thank all those who have given me Christmas day present. Zi Xuan, Charlotte, Sam, WY, Steph, Renée. I like them alot. Thank you.

I don't like playing it. I was in a sense forced.
Ate KFC and Da Bao for Sivien.
Took a bus with Steph and Chloe to PP.
Steph went to Holy Fam while Chloe and I went for BBQ.
Others was watching the women's open at the Kallang place.
Yay, the OSB ppl didn't win. Woohoo.

Went for the Tp rawks camp. It was fun. The ppl are funny.

Applied Science

Food Science

Made cinammon raisin roll. Ohh my, it's so cool. The machine and all are so cool. They have ice cream making machine. And all the weird stuff that you never knew it existed. That's it man, Food Science is gonna be in one of my 12 choices, just tt not the 1st.

BioMedical Science

Guess what I made here. Smth tt is cool. PIMPLE CREAM. Anyone wants to try using it. It's seems cool. The whole of AVA girls wants to give it to Mr Prang because we want to give him a White and Red Christmas.
One of the PL told me to use it because the glove we were wearing didn't have rash. What a bad joke.

Chemical Engineering

Not much of hands on. It was more of how they made soap from used cooking oil. Smth gross into smth so cool. The malays guys think tt they are funny but in fact, NOT AT ALL. Don't know what they were talking abt also.

There was one more course that we went to, but I can't rmb. Aww, so sad.

Business

Logistic

It was kinda boring because it's all abt computer stuff and how they work. It seriously don't get it. Yeah right, telling a computer idiot all abt working some weird soft ware. How do you expect me to get it.

Mass Comm

It was cool looking at all the machines and how much better than those chad worthless ones in our school. Some audio stuff was cool. Just tt I couldn't try the things tt I wanted to. Argh, some shit person went to try everything. kanasai la.

HTM, RHM, Culunary thing

There was just a cool lecturer telling us what they are all abt. He's so cool. Funny guy. I want to know somenoe like tt so tt tt person can make me laugh all my day. I'm always the one making everyone elsel laugh but myself. Someone who can make me laugh please appear in my life. I need the hilarious person.

Low Element

There was this big big see-saw, The whole group of us was suppose balance it. It was cool. Then some guy called Boo came to disturbed so we couldn't balanced then. There was some challenged that if we could balnce for more than 2 mins, he had to have some forfeit. We did it and we made him roll on the muddy grass. Kinda gross.

I didn't go the last day because I was too lazy to get out of the house.

The Juniors came over to my house the play Mahjong. What else can I say. I'm too lazy to blog. Ben, Spare me.

I'm sorry but I really didn't want to go graduationg with you. I knew tt you only had us to depend on and I really wanted to help but I don't know how to. Your reliance is getting on my bundles of neurones. I'm sorry but to ignore you. I know tt you won't read this post so it doesn't matter whether or not it's here and you won't even know who you are. But I just can't stand it and even though some ppl understand. I still don't understadn myself. But you really need to learn how to be INDEPENDENT. I know I'm mean but this is my only way to do it in such a way tt you wouldn't know and at the same time less saddening for you. When will you realise the fact tt we just simplay can't get along. Don't you have your own grp of friends. It may seem like as if I'm being over-sensitive but I just can't help it. Everyone's helping me to lie and I'm sorry for this. I really am. When whould you realise tt you are in a different world. I'm sorry but I don't wish to see you again. I really hope tt the team can do well together but I'm not too sure if I can tell myself to. I may attend any of the team occasion because you are there. You even make me not feel like playing Floorball anymore because I know tt if I continue my life in Floorball, I'm sure to see you again and I don't wish tt tt would happen. Am I being mean. I don't know this is just how I feel. It's irritating me and I've got no one else to tell but this freaking machine standing right in front of me. How pathetic can I get. I don't know if this choice is right but I'm a stubborn person and will not listen anyone else other than myself when my mind is made. Though my team has tried to convince me, I just can't let it go. Is it real bad to treat you like tt but I think tt drifting away is the best solution because time is the best medicine I suppose. I think nobody is gonna read this paragraph because it's so long and I shan't continue.

Saw Amanda when we reached and guess what she was in. Shirt and Shorts. How power can she get. Charmaine even better. So shinny like going to club or what. This is the second time I saw Steph in a skirt and tt better not be the last time. I hope to see her in skirt again because she is pretty.

I hate it. I can't believe tt throughout the whole lunch I sat at the same table as Xinni and Dinie tt bunch of b******. I'm sorry but I just can't stand it. I was in a bad mood and I guess they knew it. Tt STUPID dinie still thought tt I was talking abt her when I was whispering to Nanda. If you think tt you are tt worthy of for me to bitch abt then go ahead. I don't care abt you HYPOCRITE. I just don't understand why such a person can ever exist and have friends. I bet her friends are just as hypocritical as her. This kind of a person can NEVER in her life find a true friend. I'm glad I've found one. Not this machine though. I love her and I suppose we'll accompany each other till death though I'll be in poly and she JC. I know she doesn't read my blog either but I just love her.

Juniors I'm so disappionted in you all. No video for my grad la, So sad can. I shall blog some other day. Gonna talk to my best friend. Have not talked to her for a long long time.

Went down to Nanda's house with Renée to fetch Nanda from her house, because she was lazy to get out of her house while others went to prepare.

Blind folded Nanda from her house till Mountbatten CC. It was funny because she didn't know where were going and look at what I did to her face when we were in the cab without her knowing.

The kids there sang birthday song for Nanda and she was so touched tt she burst into tears. We were all happy tt she liked the surprise. Then we played game with the kids there. Karlton and his sister Chermaine are so cute so are Joseph and Jacqueline. I like them alot. They are so fun to play with. Ahmad too. He's very adorable.

Went to the kallang hawker to eat. There are so many nice food there. How come I never realise though I go there every Saturday to visit my Ah ma every Saturday last time.

Then we took bus 16 to Cine. The guy who sat beside played along with us too. He lied to Nanda together with us since Nanda doesn't know where he is going. Nanda, we were going to watch a NC16 movie because you are officially SIXTEEN.

We walked arnd and there was this tag pinned on Nanda saying,

Many ppl wished her. A group of teenage Caucasians actually even sang Birthday song for her. There were also ppl starring at like as if we were aliens. I'm happy though. Anw, the photo thing is not working shall upload the photos some other time.

I'll upload the videos we took as well.

know what. Out of 7 days in this week. I'll be going out with Renée and Pearls for six days.
I'm so happy. I'm gonna get the topshop bag.
Went with Nanda, Renée, Xuan and WY to Bugis. Then Sam, Pearls and Charlotte joined us later at a later time.
We met this two tenants. They were so funny. Like nothing better to do then just go there rent a shop and play one.
I showed one of this girl my dress and she said,"it's a dorothy bloddy perkins" it was funny in a way. They are very friendly and just sit there helped ourselves with almost everything. Now I know I can't work in any shop tt sells shirts because I can't put them properly.

I'm not gonna get the starbucks job but I'm gonna work in some telemarketing place.
I'll work hard for $10 an hours.

Went for trng yesterday and I was super duper funny. I think Sonia Teo and Jamie Chong is super funny with the English lessons and the Stretching lesson. The Sonia kept banging Jamie. Everyone was just laughing at their conversation.
Ben, you should be glad tt I gave you tatoo lor. Some ppl want also don't have ar. You should feel fortunate. Ben, STOP making funny noises, all sorts of sound effects and it was because of your sound effects tt I fell. I just can't help it but to laugh. In the end I can't stand properly and fell.
Pearls: IT'S NOT MY DAILY ROUTINE!!!

ok. The last time I blog was exactly one week ago. When I wasn't happy because there was O levels. Now, I'm happy and Gay.

16th Nov 2006, Thursday.

Suppose to meet Xuan to go Vivo to collect some movie tickets. But in the end, she told me tt she had to go her Grandma house don't know do what. I'm so glad I could find my cousin to go there with me. It's super last min. I seriously think tt my whole life is just abt waiting for ppl. First, I waited for Xuan so tt she could pass me the tabs to collect the tickets. After tt, I was waiting for my cousin to reach Eunos from her house. Waited for so long. We went to eat at Banquet. Both of us ate Chicken Rice. Then went to Vivo mart to get some don't know what. Then went to collect the tickets. After collecting the tickets, my cousin and I watched "The Grudge 2". I think it's quite a good show because it requires alot of thinking which is the kinda movie tt I like.

Saw Amelia and Vanessa there. Somehow, we went separate ways but we still met at Carls jr. in the end. Sat together and ate. Talked and somehow, ZiYing was so quiet. Nvm. We went home after tt. Didn't want to go home so went over to her house and stay over instead.

Used the computer then called YiWen because I didn't know how to explain to her online. In the end, we talked till 0345. Then, her phone batt went flat so I went to sleep.

Woke up only at 12. Uncle cooking is nice. Mum came to fetch me and I stoned at home.

18th Nov 2006, Saturday.

Went with Xuan, Pearls and Nanda to Cathay. Xuan and I went for the StarBucks interview. Hopefully I'll get a job there. I really really want it. ohh, there's this place called wood would. Nice place with nice cards. I'm going there again man though it's kinda expensive.
Nanda and I reached the place first, and while waiting. We were commenting on every grp of ppl who walk pass us. It was super funny. Now, I know tt Nanda wants big breast because she wants the horizontal stripe bikini tt will make her breast look bigger.

19th Nov 2006, Sunday.

Couldn't get to go to 1st service because I overslept so went to the third one instead. It was a very good sermon. I love it. I'm so happy for Pearls. She's opening up to God. Thank You Lord.

There is this guy called Jonathan and he's so smart. He knows how to explain to me each and every question tt I don't know. So smart. It's without a doubt abt him being in the intergrated programme.

Ohh no, I know NOBODY in the camp grp. Okay, maybe not because I know Kah Wai. But not like as if I'm very close to him right.

Went to Vivo yesterday but there isn't any thing tt I can buy. Nth much happened.

Went to Island Creamery and Ikea. Met this girl(11yrs old) and her younger brother(turning one on some day of December). Kinda made friends with them. She's very pretty. The Brother is so cure. I'm gonna marry some Phillipino one day. The children come out all very pretty one.

Was it meant to be smth fun or you just don't want to let me know?
Did you meant well because I had to study or you just didn't want me to go?
Do you even care abt how I'll feel or izzit that I just don't feel it?
There are thousands and one question in my mind wanting to ask you but somehow, I don't want to know the answers. I know I'm contradicting, but I'll never be but like that again.
Don't worry, I'll never pester anyone anymore.
Time and time again I'm disappointed. I don't wanna get hurt anymore and I'll not depend on anyone, bother abt any other thing but study hard for my last two papers.
I've learnt that crying doesn't help, I'll never help. At the very most, I'll be comforted by the fact that I care because I bothered to cry.
I don't know if it meant the way I thought. I'll not bother anymore.
I'll just pray hard abt it and hope that I'll get an answer from someone.
For the very least, I'm not as hurt as last time. I woke up earlier. Not as stupid like last time.
经一事长一志。

I've always hated school life because I've got to wake up early in the morning just to go to school and to study. But, life has been so empty since study break has started. I know that I'll never be able to sit at the basketball court to listen to the annoucements, stand there and sing both the National Anthem and School Song ever again. I really Love the school song:
Forward Katong Covent,
Make our future bright,
To achieve our aims
Bravely we will fight.
Guide us in our labours
To the Lord we pray,
In wisdom, strength and courage
Growing day by day

Solidly united,
by our motto sound
Simple in virtue
Strong
in duty bound

In duty to our country
Let us steadfast be,
Serving it with cheerfulness
And with loyalty.
Let us ever noble be,
In thought and word and deed,
Strving to our utmost
Always to succeed(WONDERFUL, isn't it)

Okay anw, I'm gonna RUN everyday. As in twice a day. Morning from my house to ECP. Evening, in Bedok stadium. I have to and I'm gonna to. Maybe might go for School Trng and join Charlotte and Sam. But I still can't decide whether or not to give Floorball up. I'm still considering, so even if I go for trng, it's just to see if I still have the ocnfidence to play Floorball.
Some song that we sang today.

I love You(x9)
and my heart will follow wholly after you.
lovely are your dwelling places, thirsty i come after you
now im yours and you are mine, and from my heart a song will rise,
Don't know why but everytime I hear it I'll just start crying and crying.

Anw, I need to study me Geog paper 1. How? My mapwork sucks.
Ohh no. What if I fail my O's I don't know what to do.
Stop talking abt the unhappy things.
I think that I gossip more and more. Tsk, as in, I don't know if it's gossiping, but the thing is that whatever that I said was true. So is that considered gossiping. I'm SORRY if I've brought to anybody any inconvinence. But I just can't keep these to myself because whatever that you have done is just so hurtful to your friends and you never did realise or izzit that you just don't bother to see. It's not just one friend but many friends. I know that you're trying so hard to hook guys up and to gain favourtism from ppl who has authority but it's NO USE.
You think ppl can't see how desperate you are. Sorry but you just just so dumb and make it so obvious that you are desperate. It's not only me who thinks so but also your own CLOSE friend and my friends. Sorry but you just can't bootlick for nuts and they are all unsuccessful. In turn, you make ppl dislike, loathe you. It'lll only make ppl hate you to the very marrow of one's bones.
okay, it may be a little too exaggerated but what you do. There is a borderline, a limit. Stop it.

I think I'm too agitated.
NVM.
LOVE HIM AND LEARN FROM HIM AND ALL WILL BE FINE.
LOVE EVERYONE.

I hate O levels. It's the killer of most ppl other than those who likes to study or do not have a life. I shall give you an example, HO KOK WEN YING.
She's totally crazy. She studies EVERYDAY, DAY AND NIGHT. The only thing she does is to Study, Sleep and Eat. She's crazy and doesn't have a life.
I miss playing Floorball but I don't think I'm gonna continue life with Floorball anymore. Like how Jie Jie felt, I'm feeling it. I never understood her but now I know. I know I'll miss my Floorball life but I don't know if I should continue or to give up and to concentrate on my Poly life next time.
I seriousl have got no idea. If I really can get in NP, Chinese Studies, I really don't know. It's like crazy. I mean like, BOTH are my interests, but, being a DJ will be both my career and hobby while Floorball is just like that. Not like as if I'm that good at Floorball or what. I'll just be more than happy to see some of my teammates playing Floorball still.
I know I'm contradicting but I have got no idea when it comes to this topic.

Anw, O levels is fine. For the last three paper that I took, the only paper that I found difficult was Chinese. Like what Berlyn told me, those ppl who have a better Chinese Foundation found the paper difficult but those with C5,6 for the last time thought that the paper was easy. How IRONIC!!!

I'm like goging crazy and that I've got paper everyday the next week and it's not like MCQ kind, ALL theory la. BIAN TAI.

My O's ends on the 20th NOv.

FOR ONE FULL WEEK I'M GONNA SHOP FOR GRAD DRESS, which is on the 27th Nov.
On the 28th Nov. I'm gonna look for Job.
From 29th Nov.-2nd Dec. will be Np and TP orientation.
3rd is Yuan Ting's birthday.
May from the 4th to 6th I'll have different grps of ppl coming to my house to play Mahjong,(Teammates, Juniors and Friends), each a day I guess.
7th is a secret party of Nanda's
From the 8th to 12th is camp.
13th is also Nanda's secret party.
14th and 15th, some stuff on.
16th and 17th, FREE.(Hurry Book Me now before it's no longer available)
18th is another Party.
19th-21th,FREE (Call 9765**** for booking)
22nd is Nanda's party AGAIN.
Christmas at Katong last for a few days so I'm not too sure when. But I know that I'll be going to HK with Nisa and friends for arnd 4-6 days but the dates are not confirmed yet)

First time in my life that my December and November is so packed.
It's totally crazy.
Should I work for Starbucks, Royal Sporting House, Levi's, some restaurant or in office. 因该选哪一个呢？

I shall guest blog for WNX since it's so dead(: Haha, I'm so nice because I changed her skins and relinked some people for her. Haaaa, I have no idea what to blog about. Oh ya, got back the results and I'm so not contented because I too don't know why she could get into 3/5 you know, I KNOW NANXIN will definitely agree right. I really really think Sandra should get into 3/5 you knowww. Nanxin, I hope you know who I'm talking about yeahhh. Nanxin is having her O levels and she has no time to blog. Haha, but I doubt anyone reads her blog either. HAHA. I shall stop here then(:

Nanxin, so do you like your skin? HAAAA.

I have not updated for a long long time and I don't even know what to write now.
I'm so not use to the keyboard now because I have not use it for a long time. Anw, I wanna thank my teammates and especially Charlotte for planning my birthday for me. Though it was a simple one, but I am very happy. Thank you my teammates for giving up your studying time. Felicia also, come cheat me. I feel so dumb. nvm. This is why it's called a surprise.

Ate Breeks and the ppl there are such a pain. Now, I know, never ever go to SiMei Breeks, the food sucks and so does the ppl. I just so simply LOVE my Teammates and Felicia of course.
The only thing that was saddening was that not all my teammates went. Sam and WY wasn't there.

After that, I went home and I felt so bad that I had to go to the hospital. Was in the hospital for 3hrs. I almost died.

It really has been a long time since I last blogged, because I had to study for my Prelims and now it's finally OVER. I'm so glad, but it's nnot the end of my Secondary school life. O levels has yet to come and once Prelims are over, I've gotta start studying for O levels alr. why can't I go back to the good old days when I never knew what is studying. Nvm, I shall look forward to my Graduation and my 3 mths Holidays. I've got so many things on during the December Holidays. The APAC that I missed last year. Chalets and Camps that I missed as well. This year going down to NP for camp too.

I still cannot believe that my FOUR years in KC is gonna end very soon. I might lose contact with many of my friends. Those that I was once so closed. Maybe, even the teachers. I may not even recognised them if I see them on the streets. Some of my juniors that I'm not close to though I still LOVE them as much as the others. Ohh my, this is getting so emo. I'm kinda looking forward to Graduation because of the pretty clothes that I'm gonna wear, but at the same time, it means that I no longer am a KCian. I can only call myself an EX-KCian. I love this school so much. I thought me so many things, I cannnot imagine what will ever happen to me if I'm in any other school.

I may not even talk to some teammates that I'm close to. The team that I love so much, The team who gave me so much love, I love EACH AND EVERYONE though some may get on my nerves most of the time. I will definitely miss the time we played Floorball together. The times we celebrated everybodies birthday. How we talk on the phone.

Gay-pok talks with Xuan. Hi-TENs with Sam. Studying in the studying room with Pearls. Eating the mee-goreng with Nanda in class. Cheena lessons with Charlotte. Staircase with Steph. Laughters with Renee. Mid-night talks with Nisa. The Chinese Drama shows with WanYan.
I'm DEFINITELY gonna MISS them.

I might not even talk to Felix as much because she'll go to upper sec where there will be so many other things she has to cope with. SK will also be having her O levels which probably will drive her crazy. Maybe the juniors that I'll still be in contact with will be Chloe and Joey Ng.

I'll miss Berlyn, now that we're in the smae school, we seldom talk, what more next time. I know that what ever happens, she'll always be with me but I just don't wanna bother her. Felicia, though we're in the same class, we don't even talk like how we did in Sec 1 and 2. I seriously don't know what will happen next time.

I hate to say that I'm leaving my school, friends and teachers but this is the fact that I cannot deny. I just gotta try my very best to talk to them as often as possible. No matter what, they'll always be in my heart always and forever.

24th Sept 2006.

Woke up late but still went for first service, then ate breakfast/lunch and went for 3rd service. Went to PP and waited my parents to go for dinner. Went to long beach. then shopped at PP. So irritating. My Sister didn't allow me to buy the Topshop($66) and Levis($129) skirt. Somemore ask my to go some chad Tampines shop and buy. Qi Si Wo Le. They don't know how to shop one la. Only stayed there for less than 2 hrs. Don't know shop for what also. Only went to Aussino, Isetan, Topshop and that's it. Levis I just went in and take a look. Dorothy Perkins too.
I'm so gonna get those two skirts. I don't have anymore skirts la.